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Sunday, September 10, 2006

10:25 PM

Special Thanks to whoever wrote the previous post. Though you did not sign off, but I could have guess who it is. I have been wanting to blog to tell you people how I have feeling lately but was worried that I could not express myself properly as you people know I am not so good at playing with this game of Alphabets. Anyway I'll just jot down what come to my mind.

First thing that come to the NS guys' mind when my name is mentioned is that I'm the crazy chap that extended my NS by 4 freaking months. I guess you might think that I'm losing 4 months of my life by doing so. However, wasting life is subjective if you think that the 2 years of NS is supposed to be wasteful from the start and you're not going to do anything with it then it will be definitely be wasted. But if you think that the 2 years allow you to understand yourself, know what you hold dear to and what you really want, then it's can become a critical two years. So what to start work two years later than others? Is working life really so attractive that you can't wait to join their rank? Though I never really work before, but more often than usual, the working adults were stressing that working is not so fun after all. Unless you are financially tight, then it will understandable that two years will worth more to you. I merely used the extra 4 months to gain more friends, experience and memories, explore myself and create my own NS story. Is it worth it? One of the lesson I learnt, never leave what you want to fate, you want something plan it and work towards it. This lesson is further emphasize to me in this year's training; to set an aim and have the flexibility of mind to overcome all obstacles to arrive at your destination.

Next, the nine months of tactical field training in OCS, same as many of you all, is definitely not going to stay with me. So why I did I go OCS for? For the rank, pride, prestige? Could be very true, because it's so tangible. But the NS guys knew better that the rank don't mean much and have seem many officers that are fuk up. So much for "reposing special trust and confidence to carry out the duty with due diligence and perseverance." What I bring away is the lesson that my Wing Commander was trying to teach my Wing and I will share with all of you. Yes, Life is full of decisions and to make one is easy. However, to live with the consequences is usually not. And the harder decisions are usually not black or white, instead it comes in different tones of grey. If one is able to think critically and find a balance, he will have gained more than the 9 months of OCS training. And for now, though newly commissioned, I feel like I have lose my map. Though I have a compass to show me my direction, I need to recover the map to ascertain the path that I am going to take.

To end off, certainly last saturday is a milestone in my NS life. And in the 1 year 8 months I'll have gotten what others did in 11 months. It certainly not a short journey. On Saturday, I was happy, but to me there's still a trace of pitiness that a special someone could not share my joy with me. And yes, life is unpredictable, that's why it's life. I also wasn't sure where I gotten the strength to carry on what I suppose to do. You guys are certainly one of the sources. And maybe it's true that it goes, "It’s when things seem worst that you must not quit".

Jo

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