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Sunday, January 28, 2007

3:08 AM

Oh my... Can't believe what you guys did to me! That must have been a hell of an act putting up with me the whole day walking with me at orchard! And for the backstage crew, I heard you had a huge rush preparing the steamboat while hiding in my room to gank me in the dark! A great thank you to all who have planned and executed the surprise, and those who took great effort to be there even though it was already late. They are, DO, KS, JY, SN, YA, YO, DE, CH, TZ, JO, (esp the planning committee) and also everyone else who wished me on the day itself, havent had the time to thank you too.

Well.. to be honest, I couldn't have asked for more. In my entire life I only had two birthday "parties". The first was when I was pri 4, when I asked my parents to throw me a party because all my other friends had one too, and my parents didn't want me to feel left out. And the second, was a few hours ago, where my closest friends collaborated with my parents, and threw me what was undoubtably my most memoriable birthday party, even though it was wayy past the actual birthday itself. Nevertheless, I felt nothing less than what I thought I would spend it, but so much more that I am speechless to have such wonderful companionship, such priceless moments.

Deep inside I have some confessions to reveal. Throughout my journey in Ireland so far, you guys have never left me at any point, accompanying me online deep into the nights, keeping me company despite the chilly weather, and the unforgiving loneliness and huge loss that I felt I left behind - My home, my parents, my sister whom I haven't seen in person for a year, and not anytime sooner than another year and a half, and my closest friends in my life. I've had countless dreams of spending time with you guys in my sleep, time and again waking up to a miserable morning, only to be dreaded furthur by exams, with mere aquaintances that bearly understood me, and yet even more depressed feelings. Honestly, you guys kept me going - that I would have to go on, not just to meet this january mark which coincidently met with my 21st birthday, but throughout my 5 year course. In the past week, while feverishly mugging hard for exams, there were countless "flashes" that streaked across my mind every 5 mintues - split-second vivid images of the times we had, how i'd imagine myself enjoying in singapore, us walking aimlessly in orchard, singing ktv late into the night, trekking in ubin even though it was past midnight (recce for nitewalk) and the moments where we held each other so close, in life-death situations in mt fansipan and kinabalu. I had with me, pictures depicting these moments, in a thumbdrive that I brought along to Ireland, to accompany me through these lonely feelings I knew I would encounter.

Actually, I bought some sweets from Ireland but forgot to share it with you guys. Got so excited that I forgot all about it. Anyway, I promise to bring it to DE's bday party next week.

When I saw ourselves having steamboat and having fun at cards, I knew that there are no other buddies in the world who would care to do what you guys did- you guys are just so wonderful, I know that I'm never alone in any day. For friends that wanted me to feel nothing less that what I deserve, I can't ask for more. Despite being in a storm of exam stresses, health issues of myself and my parents, my longingness to see my sister, and a chronic dread of the ending of this short two weeks, I've found myself in a sanctuary - right in my heart - and in any corner of the world.

Thank you, and thank you for being there for me.
AS

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AS, BX, CH, DE, DO, GY, JO, JT, JY, KS, MS, MX, RT, SN, SS, SZ, TZ, WX, WY, YA, YE, YO

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